Bittersweet Symphony

1.) What is one thing that you would change about this class?

A.) I really wish that I could have been in the actual AP class period. It makes me sad to know how much I missed out on at times, but I couldn't drop out of band! Otherwise I'm not sure I would change anything...

2.) Do you have any advice for future AP students?

A.) I think that future AP students need to not stress about these projects - not until the end of the year did I start to ENJOY doing these projects over looking at them more so as homework. Enjoy making art and even though at times it seems to pile up on you along with everything else going on in your life, if you have a talent then use it. It's so worth it in the end.

3.) What are you going to miss most about high school - and please don't say the people. Pick something else, good or bad.

A.) Haha, I would say the last thing I'd miss is the people. I think the thing I will miss most are small classes. I love learning so much, and having a smaller class is kind of cool because I think we have some great teachers here that I have loved getting to know. Mostly I'll miss the art department and band, but I'll be in a bigger art department in college, and a band full of talented people which really excites me.

4.) Give me one final thought - it can be about anything. Share a part of yourself. Something that your portfolio teachers don't know about you.

A.) I feel like my teachers don't know a lot about me! I guess I'll give a cheesy sentimental little statement of saying that I really appreciate everything you all have done for me and all of your students. I love the people involved at the art department here and I think that the teachers do such a wonderful job and not only are great teachers but (from what I know) are great people as well. I had a great four years at high school and made amazing memories, but I am DEFINITELY not one of those people who will say that high school was the best time of my life (I think that is completely pathetic, just saying) because I think that there are always better things to come. I'm so excited to continue to grow as a person and experience college, experience friendships and relationships, make memories with my family, create art, and I am just so excited for so many things to come in my life. Life is so beautiful and even though it seems hard to leave this big chapter of my life it had to happen eventually and I think that now is a great time. I just hope everyone continues to pursue art in some way, no matter where they are at in their life.

To send light into the darkness of men's hearts - such is the duty of the artist.  ~Schumann

I'm Such a Bando.

Graduation is becoming closer and closer and I am so excited, yet at the same time there are a lot of things that I will miss about high school. I am going to miss seeing everybody everyday, I am going to miss having the ability to slack off and still get by with basically all A's, and I am going to miss having art classes to always look forward to (even though I still will in college, it will be different). Most of all, I am going to miss band. I have become who I am today because of being involved with the band program here. Mr. Tallman has been one of my biggest influences and favorite teachers for the past four years, and I hold so many memories within band. One of the biggest things I have acquired from being involved in band is becoming an even stronger leader. I love being a leader and I have been on the leadership team since sophomore year, and this year I was the section leader of the saxophones. I think that has given me the ability to befriend so many people and different 'types' of people, plus I have been able to continue really great friendships such as the one I have with Amber while she was in it, and with Erica who I hold a great relationship with. I am so thankful for the friendships I have from band, and I really hope to get accepted into the band program at UIC which I auditioned for about a month ago. Not only have I become a better person through band, but my skills in performance have improved SO much. I still can't get over nerves most of the time in front of judges or soloing in front of audiences, but it is something I continue to get better at. I love being involved with music, it is one of my favorite things in the world.  think that music shows feelings, it gives you the power to move others and to express what you cannot. There are so many similarities between music and art (obviously, because music is an art), and I love being able to be apart of both of these things.

Ohhh yeah.

1.) What are 3 art related things that you have learned so far this year? What have you tried, improved upon, or conceptually thought of?

- I think the biggest "art related thing" I have learned this year is basically in the areas of my strengths and weaknesses. I have learned what I like to work with and what I don't, but I mostly have learned I really want to stick with art and still have tons of room to grow. I have also learned how to use and try different things when making art!

2.) What areas of art do you still need to improve?

- I need to improve mostly on just sticking with/starting off with a solid idea - I ALWAYS change my ideas! I have gotten better, though.

3.) Where do you see yourself, art related, in 3 years? Will you still be pursuing art and trying new things or do you think it will take a back seat in your lives?

- I am not positive, but I know that art will always be in my life in some ways. I hope for it to stay in my career, and I am pretty sure it will!

4.) What have you gotten out of this class?

- A lot of things! Mostly it has kind of been a time of reflecting for myself and I am thankful for that. I have had a really hard past two years, and I feel like I needed this time to grow and reflect. I feel like I am finally coming out of my creative rut and I love it!

This is Really Dumb...

On Friday I went prom dress shopping with Amber and Erica and this got me sooo excited for prom! I don't know what it is about prom, but I just love it! I sound like such a girl, but I cannot wait. Trying on different dresses, tanning, finding accessories - these small things in preparation for this one day some of the best part! I always have a hard time finding shoes, though. I have kinda big feet:( ok, really big. But I guess I'm pretty tall, too. I'm taller than my boyfriend, it's kinda sad, but it's okay. He's lucky I like him or I'd find a new date (I guess I wouldn't be dating him if I didn't). I think finding your dress is definitely the best part. There are so many different styles and colors and patterns and so many to choose from! I think it is so much fun. I am especially excited for this year because last year my mom did not get to look for dresses with me which made me really sad. Prom was around the time she was diagnosed with cancer and so she was always in bed or in the hospital, but she does not have this cancer anymore and I think that this is the main reason why I am so excited for this dance. Plus, it is our last high school dance, it is crazy!! I'm not going to be one who holds onto high school as the best days of my life (that's pathetic), but I definitely have great memories from high school. Anyways - not only do we get to spend the next month looking for the right dress and accessories, but then comes prom where you spend the day doing your hair and makeup and getting your nails done having such a fun night with your friends! Everyone should go, I am obviously very excited and this is one of the dumbest blogs ever but I just felt like ranting about my excitement!

I've got an itch!

Right now we are doing are project in my 2D design class that is... scratch art!! I am really excited for this project because I have never used scratch art (for an actual project). This scratch art project is also why I put my title as 'I've got an itch', because I can't wait to begin scratching, haha. I LOVE using new mediums because I always suck the first time but I find out if I like it or not and normally I love it! I also just used oil paints for my first time ever and I like them as well. I don't know why but I just love using new mediums. I love experimenting and learning new things. I just love to learn! "Write how it is going to be amazing and I am going to be proud of you" -Mrs. Martin (referring to my scratch art)... I better do a good job. I like my idea, it of course involves a person. I don't know why but people just fascinate me. Also - to ramble a little more - you guys need to learn how to spell! I know i make errors on my blogs as well but we were just discussing how some people cannot spell and Mrs. Martin told me to write my blog about that after I had already started... so... I don't know. First lesson in spelling: there is a MAJOR difference in 'your' and 'you're', also, there is a major difference in 'there' and 'their'. Those are just two small things to remember. THERE you go!

ugh.

I feel like my only decent art work this year are breadth pieces, which I hate. I am not happy with my art whatsoever - I can do so much better. I am not all that excited for these shows because of this, and it is so frustrating. I don't really know what to do. I don't have time to do stuff that I will love to put into bloom because it is so near, and that one makes me the most sad because it involves all the other students around me who participate and I want to show them my talent. I guess I should have thought about that a little earlier? I've just had a really bad past year and a half with family and school and stuff, mostly family, and I think it has really just kept me from giving it my all. That shouldn't be an excuse, though. But... it is true. I feel like all that matters though is that I know I am talented and I know that I have an artistic eye. However, I have come to find I think I am better at things like still life's opposed to just sitting down and drawing. I also have so much to learn and tons of room to grow, and I am excited to do just that.

stupid.

This is totally random, but last night I was watching the super bowl and the black eyed peas performed at the super bowl and I feel the need to rant about something... basically they sucked. Not that I did not know that already - most of the famous singers/bands now have no talent, it all has to do with the technology and this really bothers me. The only reason they are famous is because they know people or are "hot", and that is the next thing I need to complain about... I decided to post this on Facebook last night and somebody that I work with made a comment that it doesn't matter because she is hot. Personally, I think she is ugly (no offense Fergie, I actually kind of sort of like you). Guys just like that she has a nice body, but honestly, is it really that body that counts? Personally I would rather be called pretty or beautiful or cute - I think that hot simply refers to having a nice body. I do not know where I am going with this, I guess that I just think that it is funny that one day their bodies are not going to be so hot, and you are going to have to refer back to their face, and a lot of the time that part isn't too pretty unless it was to begin with. Jussst saying, that is my little rant on looks.

I apologize for only complaining in this blog, but on a happy note go Packers!